Besides being a Bachelor I am also a bachelorette. This makes life a bit complicated sometimes. I'm quite happy with the situation as it is, it has it's perks to be free.
Usually I calmly do what seems like fun at that particular moment: party in a strange city, sleep over at friends, stay up late gaming or immerse completely in a book.

There are also downsides though, besides the obvious loneliness and sexual frustration there's the continuous trouble with feelings, possible partners, misunderstood hints and so on.
Sex, relationships, friends: it's all quite distracting and bothersome. Sometimes I understand why so many people take the safe road of following a fixed set of rules written down in ancient books like the Bible.
I'm still trying to tackle this subject like it were an intricate puzzle, or a really hard monster in WoW. One of the possible solutions will be my chosen path and time will tell if it was the right one. (If there even is a right path, of course.)

If all fails there's always religion to fall back on, I'm sure my sins would be forgiven and my plate whiped clean if I went to confession. The catholic deity is famed for being forgiving and enthousiastic about new followers.

posted by Marian @ 7:42 PM 4 comments

I am Sappie Bsc.
I have an academical title to add to my name and a fancy document to prove I deserve it!


My proud parents, holding The Document. Yay!!!

posted by Marian @ 7:32 PM 8 comments

It cost over an hour to create and over 30 pins and clips, but I'm quite pleased with the result. In case it doesn't hold, here's a picture in advance.


I hope my mohawk-like construction holds during the graduation-ceremony this afternoon.

posted by Marian @ 12:46 PM 2 comments

Actually the course I'm taking is called "Autonomous Robots", but in my honest opinion the first lesson didn't quite reflect this. We are going to build an autonomous robot, so that's at least what I expected, but next to that there's a lot of discussion about art.

The fluffiness and arrogance of the whole situation is revolting. During today's meeting I felt like fleeing. The teacher once explained how scientists use one brainhalf and artists the other, how there are 'alpha' and 'beta' people, but I have come to realize this is not true. There are sain people who use their whole brain, and insane people who use only one half of their brain.
The tragic view he has of the world (where artists are gifted and scientists are boring, narrowminded people) pisses me off. He claims the term creativity as defining for artists and the thing scientists lack. There's no way this is true of course, for science can only exist because people get new ideas and try crazy stuff sometimes.

Artists... tsk... tree-hugging hippie-scum!

posted by Marian @ 5:38 PM 7 comments

posted by Marian @ 10:33 PM 4 comments

USCKI Incognito, my old study-association, held a masked ball yesterday. It was located in the monumental church tower, the Dom, which is right smack in the centre of the city and probably the most famous building of Utrecht. This made the party very special indeed.
Somehow dancing on the music that's usually played on party's, but then in a special dress doesn't really appeal to me. But when Ella released her hair from a bun or tail (I can't remember which) and danced around looking like a fury, I couldn't resist and joined in.
It was a blast, I'm really looking forward to the pictures.

posted by Marian @ 2:00 PM 3 comments

The world is a mess, and to give you all a taste of what it will be like when I'm Boss of the World, here's some of my ideas.

There is a lot of fighting in Israel, over territory as far as I can understand. The whole "promised land"-story and the "but we already live here, leave us alone"-business is getting old and I think it should stop.
Therefore I designed a full-proof plan: reclaim the Mediterranean Sea, turn it into a polder.
Plenty of room for everyone, dig a second river Jordan for all I care. Problem solved!

And another thing: if it is true that Atlantis is located under the thick layers of ice on the South Pole, maybe global warming isn't so bad after all! Seeing Atlantis would be very cool indeed.
There are a lot of species that wouldn't survive the heat, but eventually evolution will produce the diversity we so desperately want to preserve all over again. It's quite a robust system, you know.

It's all so simple. Just wait untill I'm done building my robot army: I will save the world.

posted by Marian @ 7:31 PM 5 comments

Sometimes a song surprises me. The lyrics are cooler than expected or the general melody makes me feel good. Recently I've been more receptive for this, I think, because several songs struck me. It's not really my style for this weblog, but these are just some songs I've been listening to lately:

Intermission - Scissor Sisters
I can't decide - Scissor Sisters
Time of your life - Macy gray
Day is done - Johan
Happy Phantom - Tori Amos
Will to Love - London Elektricity
Watch T.V. - Rasputina
Ghostwriter - RJD2 (I think I have a remix of this one...)

posted by Marian @ 12:47 AM 2 comments

While my partner in crime is enjoying a roadtrip to Germany, I have to finish our project for Sound Systems on my own. Max/MSP is not very hard to use and I think I got quite a good grip on it's functionality, sadly though, it's not very stable. For no reason whatsoever it quits, once in a while.
I just save my work a lot and keep on going, there's no other option I'm affraid. I'll just buffer my rage and release it in WoW this evening.
Blasting monsters will be fun: chopping off heads, ripping out eyeballs, making them SUFFER!!! [insert evil laughter here]

posted by Marian @ 10:07 AM 2 comments

The required forms are being processed and at wednesday 21st of februari I will participate in the graduation ceremony. I'm not sure if that's the right word in english, but I will get my degree and people will applaud.

I felt very fit today, so I even went to the bloodbank to donate half a litre. B-positive is quite rare and not as usefull as O-negative, but my effort was greatly appreciated. The free sandwiches and coffee were a nice treat as well.
To encourage my body to make new blood for me I went to the supermarket for something to munch. At the register I noticed I bought only red stuff: tomato juice, red wine, red meat, red cabbage and tomato soup.
If that won't help me regenerate, I don't know what will!

posted by Marian @ 1:59 PM 1 comments

The result of the exam is announced I got 5.5/10 which means:

Now I still have to get some documents approved and then.... I'll be a bachelor at last!

posted by Marian @ 2:32 AM 9 comments

Over a week has passed since the exam-that-didn't-go-so-well, but still my gut is churning from fear. I guess it will not pass untill I know for sure what grade I got. In times like these I like to add up everything that's not right in my life, drink some wine and cry out my misery at the world.
This didn't seem like the right moment to present myself as potential roommate (I am not my sparkling, jolly self) so I skipped todays room-acquiring-activities.

The drama of being gloomy suits me, I think. Bitterness is written in my eyes and sorrow on my brow. I feel like wearing black and writing emo poems about "black, thorny roses" and "red, silky blood".
Ok, well, I'm not terribly good at it, but I'm learning!

I wonder how long I can keep it up though. Spring will probably force me to cheer up and go looking for someone with broad shoulders again. I know me, sulking is just not my style.

posted by Marian @ 6:23 PM 3 comments