Character under construction.

posted by Marian @ 1:08 PM 3 comments

The installation for hardware didn't work when we presented it. The teacher said he might not let us fail the course because a level of understanding and creativity was shown in our creation.
It's frustrating when you work hard on something and the end-result is not what you hoped for at all. I was happy when the teacher said he might not let us fail, but still I don't think we deserve to pass.
There's a movie of the presentations right here: http://video.google.nl/videoplay?docid=4664503782210163548 Our embarrassing performance is all the way at the end, at 19:00 in the movie.

Next week another assignment is due, a multi-agent system for the course Embodied Vision. Let's hope I do better on that project.

posted by Marian @ 11:36 AM 5 comments

It's getting better. I'm not yet ready to finish redecorating my room (moving around furniture), but at least I went to school again yesterday and this morning the stinging in my back seemed to have lost an edge. To add to the joy and celebrations: one of my deadlines got postponed!

After the 23th of may there will be no more classes untill september. A huge Project is left to finish then, but still I will have a lot of spare time. I'm considering what I want to do, whether I want to go on holiday and if so: where.
I think I might stay at home to write, forcing myself to get some fictional prose on paper. If I get stuck with my writing and The Project allows me some spare time, I can always decide to hop on a train and spend a week or two abroad.

posted by Marian @ 10:02 AM 1 comments

With two major deadlines coming up the last thing I could use was this...
I pulled a muscle in my back.

When I make a wrong move it hurts, though it's hard to tell which moves exactly trigger the pain. Sometimes there's just no possible position in which I'm comfortable.

I tried to cure it with hot showers, I tried lying in the sun (which resulted in quite an embarrassing situation in which I had to be saved, because my back just cramped up completely and I couldn't even get up anymore) and I tried having Annabel lie on the soar spot, nothing helped so far.

Please let this be over tomorrow, I have to solder and program and present and probably write a paper as well!

posted by Marian @ 4:34 PM 3 comments

Sometimes not even the sun can cheer me up.
I know, if I just have the right expectations I won't be dissapointed. But it is hard not to dream and hope for my dreams to come true. Lately I was getting my hopes up, against my own better judgement.
Sulking won't help, actually I don't think anything will help, except for time maybe.

It's just not fair, why is it even possible to be attracted to someone who doesn't feel the same about you?! It should work like magnets, either attraction or repulsion. There's truely no need for grey areas, we live in a digital age!

And please don't start about fish in the sea and life being cruel and stuff like that. I know, I know, I know...
I'll just have my heart coated with titanium, make it bulletproof.

posted by Marian @ 9:38 AM 7 comments