I have a lot of reading to do. This means no lectures and a lot of homework. It requires a lot of discipline to study like this and you, my dear readers, will not be surprised to find that I'm having trouble with it.
The fall is beautiful this year: yellow, orange, little rain. I feel like going outside every time I look out the window. Reading outside didn't work, I tried it. Walking is nice, but it's too cold to sit still on a bench, which is definitely required for reading.

Besides being beautiful, the fall is also the start of the gloomy period of the year. November is typically the month in which I end relationships. Ever time I had a boyfriend for a period longer than a month I broke up with him in November. I suppose that the winter depression stacked with some existing dissatisfaction is enough to make me feel thoroughly fed up with it all. Hopefully it's the same this year.
I don't have a boyfriend, but I definitely have to break up with my feelings for he-who-wont-have-me. It's driving me crazy...
I imagine some of you will sigh when reading this and shake your head. Out of pity maybe, or out of annoyance over my silliness. But I tell you, I never asked for this and try to deal with it in a sensible way (though sometimes sense seems to have little grip on emotional matters).
November will set me free. And in December I'll celebrate my freedom when I reach the magical age of 25.

Back to reading now... Or no, I think I'll go for a walk first.

posted by Marian @ 1:24 PM 3 comments

At 11:26 PM,  Marian said...

Liefde is de weg grondig kwijt, al een tijdje.
Misschien krijgt iedereen maar een bepaalde portie geluk in zijn leven, dan is het maar goed dat ik de mijne nog niet op maak nu, ik moet nog zo lang.

Mooie film. Dank je. :)